The basic necessities of life are quite straight forward, food, water, shelter, education, friends and people to interact with but if these necessities are summarised into two basic fundamentals in order for someone to survive, it can be conveyed in these two words, money and love.
What i find hard is that im still alive despite not possessing any of these two necessities.
Love, something i never experience in my life, my family look at me as if im a failure, im something not worth investing in, they dont even show me love at all, everytime i come home, they dont say welcome back, good morning, goodnight, they ask me where army manners, why didnt you say hi mum im home, good morning dad, goodnight mum, then lecture me about being disrespectful.
Money, something i will never have, my parents always say, be happy with what you get, you are the most blessed out of all your brothers, they then proceed to give me nothing. Ever since ive turned 18 i have to provide everything for myself, food, clothing etc. they even take my youth allowance and say its the rent cost to stay at home, meanwhile my two older brothers are allowed to keep their youth allowance, my parents spoil them.
I fucking hate this life. Why is life always unfair, everytime i work hard for something and achieve something, my parents do not give a fuck, whilst my brother is smoking week and spending money on alcohol, they feel bad and give him more money because what, they feel sorry for him, that it will help him cause he is poor, and needs more money to be able to live.
Fucking this life is stupid, i dont even see a point of living anymore, no one gives a fuck about me, im just a waste of talent, a waste of money, a useless person, deemed unfit to survive in this world.
Quess its probably time to say goodbye to this world, i dont really see a point of even saying goodbye because no one will even respond.
