gettting shreded update #3

yeah its been awhile since i have posted my progress, i had to visit cousins and was partying and celebrating for school graduation and going out in the holidays so yeah, but this week i have been hitting the gym frequently cause fitness first is free :) 

PHYSICS PARTY!!!!!

Well its the last week of school, and we kicked it off with an afternoon physics party :), fuarrr two parties tomorrow as well :) this is gonna be an awesome week :)

Sadly we had leftovers cause we were all way too full, it was the funnest time i had in physics :), just chilling with friends and my awesome physics teacher Mr Lo.

Our physics teacher is so awesome he brought us this cake for us :) 

 My physics teacher and I + my friends photobombing in the background hahahhahaha :)

getting shreeded update

well this week, i have the same weight, i've been lifting this week, especially in the shoulders, chest and tris but havent been able to move cause i screwed up my toe when playing basketball and can't walk properly :(

sister Sherey

To be honest, the first thought when i saw you was just like, meh, just one of Daniel's girls, but for some reason, we just clicked and we just somehow got really close, i remember the first day we met, we were playing around with water guns, she even made some little girl chase me with a water bomb and i was wearing a suit :( (luckily it didn't explode when it hit me), probably one of the funniest moments i had this year.

i don't know how this all happened but we our relationship just got closer and closer, we were able to express ourselves, talk about our problems and our conversations just kept going and going. everytime i talk to you, everything bad that has happened in my day just goes away and im somehow just happy.

Despite us only knowing each other for such a short time, you are a person who has opened a new insight into my life, cause of you, i have realised to rejoice and work with what i have and to not take things for granted, you've allowed me to realise that i have important priorities in life, you are like the biggest influence of why i've decided to quit gaming, it has allowed me to realise that i have important things to do such as studying, exercising and learning new things instead of wasting my time on games which hinder my growth and knowledge. 

I know we haven't talked much since the accident, but i still worry about you, your like leaving next week and i will miss you heaps, but i quess it is for the greater good, i need to focus on my HSC and yeah, can't really afford to have distractions.  I hope you have an awesome time in China, take the time to relax and enjoy life :)

This is like the only photo i can find of me and her, first time riding a carousel and i enjoyed it :)

"If your not scared of your dreams, your not dreaming big enough"- Wayde

 the flame prob went up to 30cm but i didnt have the reaction time to take the photo :(

so this is what we were learning in physics today, the chain reaction of nuclear bombardment, this is just an example of how chain reaction occurs :)
well after the prac, we sat down with a sub teacher named Wayde, he talked about his past life and his experiences as he went through in order to obtain his current position.

He summed us his resonating speech by giving a quote one of his teachers in high school told him.
"If your not scared of your dreams, your not dreaming big enough"- Wayde
he encouraged us to set our goals and constantly persist in your dreams, he told us that every person that says your too stupid to do something, to dumn to do this, to ignore them and keep going. he finished by telling us this, i became a teacher because i wanted to help out students like us, if someone takes all these words into consideration, i will leave today a happy man.

To be honest those words have impacted on me greatly, I remember my whole life struggling to keep above average grades, my parents use to call me stupid, dumb, useless, I couldn't take this anymore and gave up on school, i hit rock bottom, getting addicted to gaming, chasing girls, other useless stuff until i got sick of it, until i realised, i need to change but it was too difficult, i've dug myself a deep hole and looking up, there was only a spec of light.

 I kept praying and praying, "God help me, how will i get through this tough time", "why am i so useless"  My Youth leader, Bernie, and Ben came up to me during youth and was like "sup" "hows studying going", i told them it was not great, im failing in everything and i find it difficult to study or improve, straight away, they invested time just to help me, they both gave me notes, asked me how i was going every day, helped create and talk about studying patterns or how to study. i remember Bernie staying up till 1am in the morning helping me with my asssignment, even though he had a uni test the day after, he even called up another of my youth leaders Tiffany, who stayed up till 3am, just to assist in my assginment despite having an interview the next day. another close friend Justin also invested time to help me in maths and chem. this is when i realised, all their time spent on me, i can't just sit there and do nothing, i cannot disappoint them, so i began constantly studying and when i got my next set of results, i was relieved and cheerful, i was surprised i got in the top 10 for 3 subjects, average for 2 subjects and below average for 1 :) ive finally started to crawl myself out of this hole, and the light above me is slowly getting brighter :), I also thank God for providing such wonderful people in my lives, that even though i was a worthless person, God saw through me and forsaw the achievements i held, he has assisted me in striving towards my goals :)

Another person which has helped me significantly is a girl i've met recently, (Sherey), shes like a little sister to me :) (always wanted a sister) but i don't know for some reason, she has opened my eyes and allowed me to see that there is more to life. I've decided to quit gaming, probally once and for all (well guaranteed until after HSC), she has allowed me to realise that their is no advantage or gain from gaming, it also has allowed me to realise there are other important things to do with life such as catching up with friends, spend some extra time on studying and to learn new things, (started to learn bboying on youtube).

The way i interpret this quote "If your not scared of your dreams, your not dreaming big enough" that even though you think you are useless, not worthy of anything, God will always see you as a worthy person and guide you through the tough adversites as you transition into different stages in life. You can always avhieve your goal, even though it might take longer than another person, you can still reach the goal, you just need to stay motivated and encourage yourself, "I can do this". I cannot express my feelings of how proud i am of myself of the amount of things i have achieved over this past year, i remember how the first assesments for HSC, i failed 4 assesments and my ranks were at the bottom of the grade, but overtime through the help of my friends, brothers and sisters, i am currently ranked above average in 3 of my subjects, 1 average and 2 below average (Chem is just hard as :( but i've been devoting alot of my time on chemistry alone, and maths is my 2 units that don't count but need it for recommended studies for exercise physiology).

If your ever in doubt with yourself and think you are worthless, useless. think over of all your characteristics of why you are better at some things than other, look at the characteristics or traits that you lack and work on it, think of your weaknesses and how you can face them and convert them into your strengths. or take it from this simple quote i use to motivate to exercise or even when i am mentally challenged when studying, "No Pain, No Gain"

Today, we disected a brain in biology :), sorta doesn't look like a brain now after the aftermath of my disection, well more like, i got too carried away and started cutting out all the lines.

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school with a whole day of double periods, amazing aye, but i reckon i learn the most from these doubles, especially if you concentrate, ended up gettting alot of concepts in maths and for pdhpe, there was literally five people in our class, so we went started breaking down extended responses from past hsc papers, quess i still need to work on that though :(

i like how i finish early on Wednesdays, so i went Parra library to study, once i got alot of chem done until Karen came :O :)......... i wasn't even expecting it and was like Chun! :), her smile instantly made my heart melt ......   well she sat next to me and started talking, until she had to get a book, NEK MINUTE!!!!!!!!  Allan pops up and cockblocks me!!!!!! :'(, oh god, quess it was good that he did cause she has a bf :( and i should really get over her *sigh*. Daniel came and we went out to eat PIZZA CONES!!!!!!!!!, first time i tried this new specimen, but it was delicious :)

Allan gave me a lift home and it was an awesome time to catch up and just have a chill sesh with my life long friend :) but when i came back home, back to my workouts :), it was CHEST AND TRICEP DAY!!! cause i felt like it :), but fuarrrr, it killed when i finished my last set. 

emotions

I hate how emotions just get the most of me, hate how difficult it is to control them, it happened today, i could of spent a nice time with friends but instead sulked over my own fucking stupid feelings.. arrrrrgggghhhhhh

gaming

so i've been gaming to fill in the spare time i have and more boredom, for the past two days, i haven't won a game since, quess i really lost my skill and its a sign to quit gaming, well i quess its for the best, im starting to learn how to bboy, it has progressed very slowly but still, "no pain no gain" also, iv'e lost a kilo O.o , guess this new routine of mine is working :)  

on other stuff, im woried about my friend, i don't know if her internet is just dead or shes busy, but yeah, im just worried that if she is emotional, or just something is bugging her, or im just being a retarted over worrying prick.......

11pm and im already tired, quess this new routine of me, sleeping early, waking early is starting to work :)

feels kinda wierd where you talk to someone daily but today, you both haven't spoken to each other, feels like my day isn't complete, but there is always tomorrow :)

what will you do if you had 5 minutes to live?

i have been reading a book i brought called 'muddy spirituality' where the author gave a speech about his life journey in moving and living in Mt Druit to preach the gospel.
 i was on the bus today and decided to read when i cam across the section which struck me, he talks about a friend who recently lost his son quiped "you only live for five minutes"  he goes on and retells one of his experiences where he receives an email from his friend in his attempt to being a better father to his children and a better husband to his wife. twelve hours later, him, his wife and this children lay dead beside the house, the Victorian bushfires demonished them without warning.
this made me wonder, what if i had 5 minutes left to live, will i be wasting my time, doing nothing or will i invest in the matters and priorities in life, which when i die, i can realised i had done something significiant in this world.

money

I know i can't complain cause kids in Africa are worse of than i am but still, compared to an average Australian standard, i am poor.

I started off in quite a crap family, we had a rent house and when i was young, i couldn't indulge in anything, i was unable to buy toys or things i like because my parents had no money, i then grew up in kindergarten where my parents could only afford to give me bread and egg and lettuce for lunch for around 2 years until i got into year 1, this was when we moved out of the unit and moved into a place where i call home, due to the huge deposit my parents paid for, we were even more poorer and had to save more, not eating out every week, only living on food that will make you full, this was basically my life story till year 10, this is when we payed off our mortgage, my brother were older and were able to find a part time job. despite these beneficial circumstances, we are unable to indulge in anything. tot his present moment, i still find it difficult to get through the day to make decisions of where i should spend my money or when to save it, i hate how i have to start saving money weeks prior to attend an event, birthday or just chilling with friends. right now, my family is going through finiancial hardships, i only found out yesterday that a few days earlier, my brother were beating the shits out of each other with blood everywhere because my bro couldn't sleep and was playing PSP which resulted in my little bro not sleeping ( they sleep on a bunk bed) , my parents woke up and full had a massive argument and was shouting and waking up everyone in the house except for me where i don't know how i slept through all that. my mum was completely angry at my brothers and demanded a new room to be built for my brother, this then causes my parents to argue because we have no money and they are still fighting now, there is like so much awkward silence in my house.

My dad told me today that we might be moving to Eastwood next year or maybe just my parents because they want to live there, my parents told me that i have to find a part time job and start looking after myself, i seriously don't know what the fuck im gonna do, i just wish that somehow, i just have money, enough money so i can just be happy, able to afford the necessarities of life, last friday my friends were like, "why havent you been buying food lately Chun????" i just had to lie and say, "i am on a diet".

despite all this shit i have been throughout the week, my friend Sherey just cheered me up, she shouted me and we went on this carousel thingy, something i've never been on before but it was enjoyable.

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Hi Chun ! What do you think of your new template ? :) Tell me if there's anything you need to change !

despite the hardships in life, the time you spend with friends take your mind of stressful matters

i had an early morning with some family issues and got onto a train heading for UNSW open day, i was angry, annoyed, sad, stresses, doubted, until i got to UNSW, my friends and saw my friend i haven't seen in a while, well more like a friend i had a crush on i don't know when i saw her, my heart just stops, she looks so beautiful!!!!!!! :) we started having some small talk and stuff but i was really distracted, firstly, my friend Allan was behind her continously chopping his arm and saying "chop in" which just made me laugh like a retard, secondly it was quite windy and her hair was blowing and it made her like 10 times more attractive :O !!!!! I then started attending lectures for quite a while, talked with a few friends i met there until Daniel and I were gonna meet with Sherey and Melissa, unfortunately, Legend doesn't have a frekin phone so we spent a good old 10 minutes trying to track his location, nek minute, we find out Legend is at central (where we were gonna meet up). so we bus all the way back to central and buy the time we got there we saw Legend skuxxing with the ladies!!! ;), and we were 30 minutes late, so Sherey started PMSing and said we were an hour late................, we then started walking to darling habour which was quite wierd cause Sherey was mad and just kept walking without acknowledging out existence :( while we pedoly follow behind her until we got to pancake of the rocks :) during that walk, i was just thinking about family issues and when i got there, i was just so out of it, until Sherey started talking to me and cheered me up :)  

we then started playing 44 homes :) and ended up going on the carousel with Sherey, it was my first time on it and i have to admit, it was quite fun :) we were climbing this thingy when it started raining like crazy :( then Melissa had to leave, we went galaxy world and Legend and Daniel went to buy drinks so i ended up being alone with Sherey, she had to go toilet and i had no choice to follow her cause 'women cannot go alone to the bathroom cause they will get raped!!!' we ended up losing Daniel cause he had to go :( but we found Legend and walked up to town hall so Sherey can catch a bus home. we parted and i went Ashfield to have a Father's day family dinner at the 'New Shanghai' restuarnt, i had to like wait 2 hours to get a table  cause my parents came an hour late than they said they were coming plus we had to wait for a table :( but it was worth it, we had a good time :)

hmmm what an fun day :) thought it was gonna be a crap day but it turned out to be a memorable day :)