money

I know i can't complain cause kids in Africa are worse of than i am but still, compared to an average Australian standard, i am poor.

I started off in quite a crap family, we had a rent house and when i was young, i couldn't indulge in anything, i was unable to buy toys or things i like because my parents had no money, i then grew up in kindergarten where my parents could only afford to give me bread and egg and lettuce for lunch for around 2 years until i got into year 1, this was when we moved out of the unit and moved into a place where i call home, due to the huge deposit my parents paid for, we were even more poorer and had to save more, not eating out every week, only living on food that will make you full, this was basically my life story till year 10, this is when we payed off our mortgage, my brother were older and were able to find a part time job. despite these beneficial circumstances, we are unable to indulge in anything. tot his present moment, i still find it difficult to get through the day to make decisions of where i should spend my money or when to save it, i hate how i have to start saving money weeks prior to attend an event, birthday or just chilling with friends. right now, my family is going through finiancial hardships, i only found out yesterday that a few days earlier, my brother were beating the shits out of each other with blood everywhere because my bro couldn't sleep and was playing PSP which resulted in my little bro not sleeping ( they sleep on a bunk bed) , my parents woke up and full had a massive argument and was shouting and waking up everyone in the house except for me where i don't know how i slept through all that. my mum was completely angry at my brothers and demanded a new room to be built for my brother, this then causes my parents to argue because we have no money and they are still fighting now, there is like so much awkward silence in my house.

My dad told me today that we might be moving to Eastwood next year or maybe just my parents because they want to live there, my parents told me that i have to find a part time job and start looking after myself, i seriously don't know what the fuck im gonna do, i just wish that somehow, i just have money, enough money so i can just be happy, able to afford the necessarities of life, last friday my friends were like, "why havent you been buying food lately Chun????" i just had to lie and say, "i am on a diet".

despite all this shit i have been throughout the week, my friend Sherey just cheered me up, she shouted me and we went on this carousel thingy, something i've never been on before but it was enjoyable.